Friday, May 30, 2008
i'm feeling emo now. guess it's bcos the mission trip people are leaving tmr. i'm really sad that i can't go this year! thought i was disciplined enough to reject going right from the start but my decision kinda wavered when i received the news that pauline couldn't make it for the trip and when von asked me whether i could join them cos of the shortage in manpower. sigh. i knew right from the start that it's impossible to go this year and i was already lucky enough that my mum allowed me to join church camp cos of the big fat Os. can't life just do away with examinations? why is our society so achievement-based? i hate this. besides, more than 90% of what you've studied previously in primary to tertiary schools are very useless. i don't see how you can apply mole and titration into our daily lives. ._. if you have any idea how to, please impress me with your wisdom.
yvonne, i'm so gonna miss you loads! no crabby online conversations, no webcaming, no online shopping, and many many more things! sigh. don't miss me too much k! concentrate on your work there. (: i'm sure 8 days will fly like a wind. i hope... and jiayou to all the people who are going for the mission trip! zhongmin daoshi, pastor kelly, cuiwen, minghui, junyan, yvonne, ah neh and darrell. (:
holidays has been packed like i dunno what! i'm trying to do 1 mock paper a day which is quite crazy for me cos i hardly touch any mock papers that my teacher give me! the most i did within a month was 3 mock papers. haha. (: slackerbutt huh. i know. that 3 wasn't that torturous cos it was all maths. i like maths, so it's not as bad to do smth that you like. i've got like more than 10 sets of mock papers consisting of english, chinese, maths, chem, bio! oh gosh. i doubt i'll ever finish it. i'm getting freaking stressed over this dumb o levels! AHHH~~~ i feel like pulling all my hair out. my motivation to study is there, but there's no action! HAHA. so it's kinda useless...
i really hope i won't screw up my exams as it'll sorta predict my future. psle is seriously crap. its just an exam which will predict whether you'll receive good teachers or not for your secondary school education. if you're suay enough to enter a good school with bad teachers, all i can say is good luck. i shall save that for myself.
come to think of it, life is kinda boring. all you do is study for 2 whole decades and work for let's say 5 decades and then you'll grow old and die. how monotonous. i'm sure the leisure time that we can afford is barely 1 decade in your whole entire life. what a sad and tragic life we lead huh. therefore, we should enjoy whatever we have all the time so that you won't regret it in the future! like me, i ponned extra lesson today! HAHA. knowing that it's gonna be unproductive, i stayed at home to sleep more instead. (: at least it's smth much more meaningful than sitting in the theatrette for 2 whole hours and stoning at the same time. waste of transport fee and my time!
okay. i shall update whatever i feel like updating. i'm getting lazier to blog cos my life has been and is gonna be BORING; eat. sleep. study. EVERYDAY!
esther
